I’m still here

I can’t breathe. I should be able to, my allergies aren’t causing wheezing or sneezing. But I can’t breathe.  It comes from the heart. As a professional sick person, I’m aware of the mindset that disease repels.  I’m not so sure.  I think that disease terrifies people.  It scares me and I am a sick person. … Continue reading

What did you do last night?

It is a seemingly harmless question, until you put the emphasis I keep hearing on it. It sounds more like, What did you DO last night?!  Everyone is only trying to start a conversation, to flaunt the edges on what appears to be my excessive tiredness. Only two people at my new job know that … Continue reading

Hello! From the future

Today, for the first time this year, I felt a tug on my heart and mind.  It was the future, saying hello! Everything has been whirring about me lately, moving much faster than I expected, and I was surprisingly startled at this futuristic greeting. I realized today just how different my life is going to … Continue reading

Discomfort

I know your technical term is discomfort. But let me tell you right now, I wouldn’t be here if I was only experiencing discomfort. An awesome Friday turned into 9:30pm trip to the emergency room. I was in severe lower abdomen pain, low like ovaries, uterus, etc. Like couldn’t walk, couldn’t sit, couldn’t stand searing … Continue reading

Sage words I already knew

If you could be present, you’d do great. (Anyone else feel like that is the story of their life?) My un-fibro self screams at this.  Positively berates me. You can do better, just get a lot more sleep/exercise/vitamins. You aren’t trying hard enough. and a whole other slew of impolite criticisms. But honestly, all I … Continue reading

Community Property

I suck at small talk. I can do it, but I find it pointless because you never get to the heart of the person you are communicating with. Plus it is exhausting. Even funnier than small talk is when someone tries to sound smart or impressive. I heard someone once say, in reference to something … Continue reading