Hello! From the future

Today, for the first time this year, I felt a tug on my heart and mind.  It was the future, saying hello! Everything has been whirring about me lately, moving much faster than I expected, and I was surprisingly startled at this futuristic greeting. I realized today just how different my life is going to … Continue reading →

How are you?

Life with Oz lately has been tough. Especially on me. To be honest it’s hard. It sucks a lot.. It’s like I’m looking at the character sketch of myself and trying to figure out what I can emphasize and hold on to. It is like Einstein’s riddle. There are a bunch of clues and you … Continue reading →

The thought out response

Oz was considering taking a break.  From us. He has a lot going on. That isn’t an excuse for a very serious consideration, though.  In the end, he decided that taking a break wouldn’t be a good idea. I was talking with my best friend Red about my situation. She asked me what I was … Continue reading →

Sage words I already knew

If you could be present, you’d do great. (Anyone else feel like that is the story of their life?) My un-fibro self screams at this.  Positively berates me. You can do better, just get a lot more sleep/exercise/vitamins. You aren’t trying hard enough. and a whole other slew of impolite criticisms. But honestly, all I … Continue reading →

Today I Feel Loved

Today I feel loved. I spent last night cuddling with Marcie on the couch. I saw Oz this morning before I left, and we danced in the drive way. One of my professors was so excited to see that I was in her class, again. Another professor that I adore (and am slightly intimidated by) … Continue reading →

Thrill Rides

My fibromyalgia has been very active, roller coaster like. This got me thinking about the time Oz and I went to an amusement park over the summer. I like roller coasters but I am more careful about getting on them when my body is already hurting. Plus, tests have shown my adrenal glands are over … Continue reading →