I’m still here

I can’t breathe. I should be able to, my allergies aren’t causing wheezing or sneezing. But I can’t breathe.  It comes from the heart. As a professional sick person, I’m aware of the mindset that disease repels.  I’m not so sure.  I think that disease terrifies people.  It scares me and I am a sick person. … Continue reading

Community Property

I suck at small talk. I can do it, but I find it pointless because you never get to the heart of the person you are communicating with. Plus it is exhausting. Even funnier than small talk is when someone tries to sound smart or impressive. I heard someone once say, in reference to something … Continue reading

Being human?

My elbows. And the tip of my nose. What do those body parts have in common? They are the only parts of me that don’t hurt (right now any way). I have been in one of the hardest flares of my life. Too exhausted to stay awake. Too much pain to fall asleep. Too fatigued … Continue reading

The biggest fear, initially.

After my last relationship ended due to my health complications, I was rather hard-pressed to enter another relationship. Especially on that level. There was always something special about Oz though, which drove me to voraciously pursue him. I had one big fear though, which I happened to revisit tonight. That great fear stemmed from the … Continue reading