I’m still here

I can’t breathe. I should be able to, my allergies aren’t causing wheezing or sneezing. But I can’t breathe.  It comes from the heart. As a professional sick person, I’m aware of the mindset that disease repels.  I’m not so sure.  I think that disease terrifies people.  It scares me and I am a sick person. … Continue reading

Hello! From the future

Today, for the first time this year, I felt a tug on my heart and mind.  It was the future, saying hello! Everything has been whirring about me lately, moving much faster than I expected, and I was surprisingly startled at this futuristic greeting. I realized today just how different my life is going to … Continue reading

How are you?

Life with Oz lately has been tough. Especially on me. To be honest it’s hard. It sucks a lot.. It’s like I’m looking at the character sketch of myself and trying to figure out what I can emphasize and hold on to. It is like Einstein’s riddle. There are a bunch of clues and you … Continue reading

The thought out response

Oz was considering taking a break.  From us. He has a lot going on. That isn’t an excuse for a very serious consideration, though.  In the end, he decided that taking a break wouldn’t be a good idea. I was talking with my best friend Red about my situation. She asked me what I was … Continue reading

Discomfort

I know your technical term is discomfort. But let me tell you right now, I wouldn’t be here if I was only experiencing discomfort. An awesome Friday turned into 9:30pm trip to the emergency room. I was in severe lower abdomen pain, low like ovaries, uterus, etc. Like couldn’t walk, couldn’t sit, couldn’t stand searing … Continue reading

Community Property

I suck at small talk. I can do it, but I find it pointless because you never get to the heart of the person you are communicating with. Plus it is exhausting. Even funnier than small talk is when someone tries to sound smart or impressive. I heard someone once say, in reference to something … Continue reading